The Holiday

Wow, I can't believe it's December! This year has flown by. So many changes in our lives... but one thing has been constant, the happiness that Korbin brings in my life. I was just thinking about him this morning, while sitting at my desk at work. I had some down time and started to unpack my box from when I moved my desk into our new designer's room two weeks ago. I came across pictures of Korbin that I proudly display for everyone to see. And, then this overwhelming sense of happiness and pride came upon me. I am so grateful to have such an amazing person in my life. He's so loving, kind, funny and wonderful. Even on the days that I am frustrated with him (not often) I still can't hide my smile. I love his hugs. Gosh, I love his hugs. And, don't get me started on his kisses! He tells me that I am his best friend (and his Daddy), which warms my heart, too.

Sometimes the thought crosses my mind of what my life would be without him. Briefly. If Ryan and I hadn't adopted that adorable bundle of joy that tugged on my collar in the orphanage... then I feel selfish, because my next thought is that I want to be his mom. Period. No one else can have him! :)

Although he is not of my family genes (he doesn't know how lucky he is), I still feel like he is a part of me. A product of Ryan and I. I see it in his behaviors, his attitude and his appearance. Maybe not his physical features (even though a lot of people say he looks like me), but in his clothing and style.

I think about him all the time. Even on the weeks that he is not staying with me, he is on my mind. I might be out at a concert, or having dinner with friends, and then somehow my mind will wonder off and I'll try to imagine what Korbin is up to at that moment.

Anyway, what I began to say is that this has been a crazy roller-coaster of a year. Somehow we've made it through. I think Korbin, being such a constant, has given us strength, hope and a few good reasons to laugh.

Korbin is amazing, and he doesn't even know it.